“In all of living, have much fun and laughter.
Life is to be enjoyed, not just endured.”
-Gordon B. Hinckley


Feeling funky...

So I really feel like I'm in a "funk" lately. I can't seem to get my act together. It seems like only a few short months ago that I felt "accomplished" at the end of the day.... marking off all of my "to do's", cleaning (I mean the good, deep sparkly kind of cleaning) and finishing projects around the house, working my little business, taking care and even spending time with the kiddo's, selling a few of my "wares" on the side, and not feeling too overwhelmed at the end of the day.
And now I look back and think....how did I really have it all together like that? How is that possible? Because looking at myself & my situation now....my house is out of control. I can never keep it clean. Our laundry alone is going to bury me alive. My "to-do" and project list just keeps growing and growing, with no end in sight. And my poor children. I do take care of them. And I do my best to give them some one on one time. But I will be the first to admit (& this isn't easy for me), that I am a total slacker at spending time with my children and doing fun crafts with them, or getting down on the floor to play legos or color....something I used to do frequently.
So what's going on? Our situation is pretty much the same, except our kids are obviously a little older. Could it be that 2 are in school and we have homework and reading every night? Could it be that Belle is now 2 yrs old and really is going through that terrible, "into EVERYTHING", won't even sit for 2 minutes in front of a princess movie, stage? Could it be that, although my husband has a great job that provides for alot and is such a blessing, he works the craziest hours, plus goes to school full time? (probably not...that's been going on for a couple years now)....Could it be that I am now 32 years old and have just lost my "zest"?
Well, posting about it has made me feel a little better. But my house is still a mess, so I must leave the blogging world and go back to reality.

Conclusion: "Merry Maids, sign me up!"


whitney said...

It is good to know that I am not the only gal that has these feelings. Thanks for this post and for stopping by and saying hi. Nice to "see" you again!

Hope said...

Wow, I say kudos to you for even feeling that way at some point in your life! I have never felt like I have everything under control, and I am a CONTROL FREAK! When you remember what your secret was back then, would you clue me in??? And they say it only gets worse as our families get older! :)

Steve-Krista-Collin-Sydney said...

Wow- I have never felt like I have "had it together"! And from what I see of the pictures of your kids- they look pretty happy to me. You are an awesome mom!!! The house and the laundry will be there -unfortunately- tomorrow. I've had to say that to myself almost everyday. Just come visit me and then you will feel really good about yourself!!!!! Love ya!

P.S. You my dear will never lose your zest- I think genetically it is impossible!! :)

Julianna said...

I think we all go through a funk every once in a while. You will be out of it soon.

Meg'n'Josh said...

I hope I didn't "mislead" anyone into thinking that I was once "perfect"....:) I really didn't mean to imply that I had 'IT ALL' together...just that I had it together a lot more than I do now. And I really want to be back to that place where I accomplished more and it was a little easier to do. Confusing, I know...it doesn't make sense to me either!!!!

ARRON N' L!SA said...

Megan, megan, megan,- you are an amazing person, friend, mother and wife, and if you feel like you dont have it together, then take some time off, let the floors get dirty, let the laundry go unfolded, and just play with your kids,(or let aunty lisa babysit) and you go out with your husband, you'll get it together again, everyone needs a mental break once in a while. :) sorry about the novel. love your guts.

Anonymous said...

Meggie poo... You sound just like me. But in your case, you are just to hard on yourself. I have discovered that I will never love playing barbies and legos on the floor due to my short and adult-like attention span (I leave that up to Ty since he loves to do it). But I'm ok with that because I have other great qualities that I think make up for that like being able to talk about anything with them, we cook together, and I'm a great cuddler. You have many more great qualities than that so I think you're doing fantastic. You don't have to be SuperMom all the time. I love you!